Surrender...

Do you fear surrendering something in your life to God?  I know I did.  I knew at that time in my life there was one area I could not seem to let go of.  One area I didn't believe God knew best.  Yet this same area I knew continued to draw me away from Him!

That area was men, and for me I didn't believe giving this area to God would be something I would want if God was in charge of it.  Honestly at this time in my life I was a single mother and believed the only way life would be complete and "okay" was if a man was in our life to take care of us.  What I didn't realize at the time was God Himself wanted to be that person for me and my daughter as our provider and protector.

I honestly believed if I surrendered this part of my life to God He wouldn't send anyone in our lives.  I believed God was asking me to become an "old maid".  But one day as I drove home from work God's voice was so loud all I could do was surrender.  It wasn't a quiet, gentle surrender to God like I have observed in so many others lives, it was instead a position of defeat before God.  

My surrender felt at first like an argument I had just lost, but at that very moment God turned my feelings of defeat and despair into hope, love and His peace.  It was this experience from God that made me know I could trust Him with this area of my life, and that no matter what it ended up looking like it already felt better knowing God would take care of it.

Looking back, I know it was this conversation with God where I finally surrendered in believing I knew what was best for me.  I began to trust God in a whole new way, and in every area of my life!  God knew I wasn't ready until then to believe He wouldn't hurt me and would give me the desires of my heart.  God knew I needed to take it at my own pace and was waiting patiently for when I was ready.

What is in your life God has been asking you to surrender to Him?  Are you in a place in life where you have never asked Jesus into your heart, and can't escape His voice like I couldn't because it just keeps getting louder and louder?  Wherever you are on your journey with God, and whatever He is speaking to you to surrender, I encourage you to do so!  Because when you do surrender to God in your life, He won't hurt you, He knows whats best for you, and He will never give up on you!