Jay...

Hi my Name is John, I met Jen 2 years ago. Most of my life I had lived in fear and anger. I had an abusive childhood. My earthly father tried to kill my mother and I more than once. My best friend was murdered along with his mother. We were abandoned, homeless and on the run as a child. Later on in life I found church and a beautiful person who became my best friend whom I got to marry. We moved to Alaska in 1994, had a son in 1996, and attended a church that we thought was safe. Myself and many others had many bad experiences while attending this church, instead of finding Gods peace. I began shaking in fear while being screamed at for being fearful. We were spiritually abused and this effected my marriage, my son, and my jobs. I couldn't hold a job, I was angry all the time and I had no idea what PTSD was. I couldn't figure out why I was crying all the time and shaking. At one time in my life a put a 357 to my head because I wanted to end it. I sought professional help and all my psychologist wanted me to do was take more drugs, I told him "No" and was done dealing with him. His last words to me were, "Are you going to kill someone?" I told him if I was I wouldn't tell him and walked out.

When I met Jen I was working in security, and had to deal with a lot of dangerous situations. The straw that broke the camels back for me was when someone's baby almost got kidnapped on my watch. My mother and I were kidnapped by a dangerous man as a child and I later learned this was a trigger. The experience brought me to shut down and I couldn't work anymore. I believed I was worthless, I was shutting down fast. My wife was left on her own for a season because all I could do was shake, cry and wonder who was watching me and who was going to physically attack me when there was no threat.

Jen became my counselor at that time, and all I could do during session was cry. She showed me the love of Christ and was patient with me. There were times I got emotionally rough in our sessions but she kept showing me the love of Jesus.  She explained to me where my trauma had started and why it was affecting me. She explained to me that there is healing and hope in Jesus. She taught me how to work through triggers and other anxieties I was facing. God used her to bring healing in my life. I can honestly say I’m not the same person she met 2 years ago. Jen is a dedicated counselor that will stand by your side. She is not just a blessing to me but to my wife as well.

Jen thank you for your time with me. You have not only helped my spiritual life but my marriage as well. You truly show the love of God in Christ Jesus and I'm forever thankful. My prayers are with you as well.
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Sincerely
Jay